Imperfection~

You look at me, you speak to me, you stand next to me, only to tell and show me my weakness.

You talk to me, we fight, and at the end, you say its me and my words.
You look at me, and you remind me how awful i seem to your eyes.
You stand next to me, only to show how superior you are compared to me.
You walk away, leaving me broken, standing speechless about what is left.

Its my mistake maybe,
Shattered dreams, only illusions..
I guess it all seems impossible now..
Broken trusts, and broken hearts...
I built too much faith on words and love...
I'm sorry, its my mistake entirely.

If only you felt that same spark you did, when you first saw me...
If only you felt how sweet my words are, similar to the first day we spoke..
If only you felt proud and happy standing next to me, like you did yesteryears..
Only then you will not see the imperfection that is reflected upon me.

You will always be my shine when it rains,
The smile that comes during a terrible day,
Your memories will fill my lonely days
For what i had and have till today is pure...

What the heart has once owned and had, it shall never lose~

Betrayal~

Today i gained a very valuable lesson. A lesson which i will never forget till the end of time. Betrayal! I learnt that people, regardless of how close they are to you, or how attached you bond with them, have all the ability in the world, to stab u right on ur chest, without realising the impact of their actions.

Yes, i have been a victim, i never knew, that people at a point of time in my life, would just turn their backs at me, and never realise the impact of their actions. I am not worried about people knowing the truth, but i trusted you with secrets. I know lots about you too, i never went round discussing with the world did i?

I feel fooled, cause i once trusted you. There may be distance between people, people part sometimes, but do you realise that, only when you part, it shows you your character, your ability to deal with it. And clearly, you made a fool of urself. I must say, as an educated human being, you acted the cheapest. Its ok, discuss about me all you want, talk as if there is no tomorrow, someday you will taste your own medicine, and when that day comes, it will just be too late to mend what has been broken.

This reminds me of a topic my friend discussed with me. He said, indians are divided into casts, and the lowest are said to be 'paraiyar''. Some people are unaware of their status, but their actions prove it. You have successfully proven to me that you are it, and that will never change my opinion towards you! For a person who never believed in casts, and for a person who thought everyone is equal, i today must say that, you proved to me that, even this segregation of casts, its all cause of the human own doing!

I learnt hard today, that from this day forward, i need not think or wonder or ponder about you cause i feel, you never respected me enough, you never cared for me enough.. compared to the amount of care and respect i had for you.. From this day forward, watch your back gal, i wont stab you, but reality bites, so some day you will hit hard! Beware!

And to those who gave me a chance to bounce back.. actually only one person.. thanks! You will be remembered forever~

*The Bitter Truth*

I have realised that:

~You can never love someone or something, and believe that it is going to be yours entirely!

~You can lift your spirits with words, but actions speak louder than words!

~You can climb the highest mountain, but never without falling and hurting yourself!

~Life is never fair, its UNFAIR! Many never follow rules and norms!

~People change, drastically, to the best of their interest. Nothing you do can stop them!

~The traits people lack these day : Gratitude!

~The tongue is a sharp object! Its thorns are only visible after the prick!

~The heart can never be protected from pain! One day or another, it will hurt, and the pain in unbearable and ever lasting!

~No one has the right to judge us, or comment on us. But the irony is: People judge others, to portray their strengths!

~Appreciation cannot be expected, not even a single thank you. These days, people look for help, but never appreciate it!

~Expectations is something you put upon yourself, cause you know your capability and limits. Expectations never work on others, surrounding us!

~Happiness and sadness is in your hands! Choose to be happy, Change sad moments into cheerful ones!

~People who hide their feelings are not fools. They're angels, who wish no harm and pain towards others!

~Insecurity lives within all of us. Some just show them, others hide them!

~Put your head up high, the world may turn their backs, but remember, parents had you for a reason, so strive hard!

~SMILE! Regardless of how hard life has an impact on you, a smile can lift your spirits up!

~A person who judges someone based on here say, is like a human being unable to think!

The decided~

I have decided,
I am not going to force it,
I'm not going to hunt,
I'm not going to chase after it..

I have decided
I'm going to wait
I'm going to watch what happens
I'm going to surrender what comes my way
I'm going to make the best of it

Cause i have lost
Every little bit of energy
To fight for what this heart truly desires~

My Life... Today~

The earth rotates around the sun, and the moon rotates around the earth. Its unique, how they're never at the same spot always. I have begun to realise that life is also the same. We're never in the same spot, the exact same spot. Someway or another, things have changed, we may be in the same place, at the same time, but never in the same year, or we may never have the same feeling. Its unique, it makes us have a greater perception to life. I guess, it supports the fact that "Nothing is ever permanent in life, some way or another things change!"

Life today is pretty focused. Its very precise, very distinct, very accurate. Time is spread according to a schedule, work is distributed according to availability of instrument and its corresponding analysis, Life is centered towards achieving goals and aspirations, Leisure circulates among the ones we trust and love, Ambition stands at the top spot, and other "likes" and "desires" just mingle around, slotting them where ever possible. I like this life for some reason, its fulfilling, more me, less people, less worries abt the society, focused on me, my family, my immediate and my goals!

Some would crave for this life of mine, a rather boring scheduled life, but i always bear in mind that its the boring life that is craved, less of ups and downs, more of time for thoughts and rationalism. So many things around me have changed, the irony is people still pretend like there was nothing. Well, things are meant to be... everything is meant to be.. so we'll let it be! :)

I'm missing home terribly.. have not gone home for such a long time. Thank God for the wonderful souls that surround me during this stormy moment. Laughter, little chatters, giggles and warm company have always made me feel like home. You all know who you are! I love u all ;)

Life is blend, life is plain, but i hope it all ends well...

cheerz to all

sharu~